Hello there!
Being that this is my first official post I thought I should try to do something really amazing. This, of course, lead me to sit at my desk and stare at the computer screen for about a century with nothing to show but a headache. Since my original AMAZING PLAN was a no go I decided to do the next best thing, be honest. The honest truth is that I am completely terrified of my bookshelf right now. As I embark on my book
journey this New Year I find myself at my very first road block.
I wonder, does anyone else get stopped by the fear hamsters from time to time? As for me, I am peeing my pants and hiding in a corner right now. I feel as if I have forgotten how to read and if I pick up a book then it will explode in my hands. Never before in my entire life have I been so scared of doing
something that I love. How can I feel so terrified of something that used
to bring me such joy? My head has been spinning its gears all night to try and
figure out why I feel this way and finally when I woke up this afternoon I came
upon a solution.GUILT. Maybe it seemed obvious to you but to me this was a total
shock. Guilty, I feel so guilty at having put my passions aside for so long and I’m scared
of having to play catch-up with the person I used to be. Its horrible to feel this way but thankfully I know that I don't have to be alone here. My goal with this blog is to make friends and indulge my passions. Just like any other socially awkward teenager, making new friends is not my strong suit but I have hope. As for the fear hamsters, I suppose I’m going to have to drown them out and
just jump head first into my first read of 2013. Hopefully I remember how to swim.
Comment down below if you have ever been visited by the fear hamsters or if you would like to be my new book friend. Both would be wonderful. .-.
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